EGOisSICK
01-23-2011, 06:16 PM
To begin this Thread I'm going to bring up several definitions of key vocabulary :)
Mediocre –adjective- 1)of only ordinary or moderate quality; neither good nor bad; barely adequate
Fear- -noun- 1)a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid
Now that we got that out of the way let me get to the part when I go into my background...
As many of you may know I am one of the hundreds of kids trying to go professional in Halo Reach. But, what makes me different from the kid sitting next to me at the event? To be honest I have been thinking about the question for a while. See, I'm just a middle class hopeful from Orange Connecticut, no body big knows exactly knows who I am. So, why should I try. See, since a totaler I have had this fear of being Mediocre. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with being mediocre, but I don't want to be just another face walking down the street. There has been burning passion to be the best; in almost every aspect of my life. Believe it or not I play football for a devision one high school (Notre Dame West Haven) that won states two years ago. Another accolade that this school has acquired is a spot in the top 12 Catholic High Schools in the country. As you may expect there is a lot of pressure from the parents. But, this pressure is not something that started when I was accepted, but when I a newborn. Is it bad? Of course not! It is what makes me want to be famous. Anyways, lets get back on topic, shall we?
As I was saying, Whats makes me better then anybody? As I am sitting here thinking; I come up blank. Is it that I go to NDWH? Nope. Is it that I want to be a household name? Nope. Is it that I'm a member of TLN? Possibly :) Okay, its about to get deep.... See, the fear of mediocre is starting to consume me. It is even bring down my ego. Everyday I wake up and look and around my and want better. And, don't get me wrong I am grateful, but I want the home that you see on cribs. Thinking about me never reaching the goal is frightful. It can almost bring me to tears. Like what if me being a good boy and saying my prayers not get me where I want to be. When I get older I don't want to have to worry about paying bills, or if I can give my kid lunch money that day. I don't want to be the guy that is 30 telling the stories that he almost made it pro, or still trying. I WANT TO BE THERE!!!
And, then on the other hand; why do I care? Why can't I just be happy? Life can be as enjoyable chilling on a beach being a nobody. So, why do I want the riches. Only the lord knows...
So, if you stayed and even read this long, random, poor written thread, thank you. If you didn't well you won't be reading this. In the end thanks for reading :)
Mediocre –adjective- 1)of only ordinary or moderate quality; neither good nor bad; barely adequate
Fear- -noun- 1)a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid
Now that we got that out of the way let me get to the part when I go into my background...
As many of you may know I am one of the hundreds of kids trying to go professional in Halo Reach. But, what makes me different from the kid sitting next to me at the event? To be honest I have been thinking about the question for a while. See, I'm just a middle class hopeful from Orange Connecticut, no body big knows exactly knows who I am. So, why should I try. See, since a totaler I have had this fear of being Mediocre. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with being mediocre, but I don't want to be just another face walking down the street. There has been burning passion to be the best; in almost every aspect of my life. Believe it or not I play football for a devision one high school (Notre Dame West Haven) that won states two years ago. Another accolade that this school has acquired is a spot in the top 12 Catholic High Schools in the country. As you may expect there is a lot of pressure from the parents. But, this pressure is not something that started when I was accepted, but when I a newborn. Is it bad? Of course not! It is what makes me want to be famous. Anyways, lets get back on topic, shall we?
As I was saying, Whats makes me better then anybody? As I am sitting here thinking; I come up blank. Is it that I go to NDWH? Nope. Is it that I want to be a household name? Nope. Is it that I'm a member of TLN? Possibly :) Okay, its about to get deep.... See, the fear of mediocre is starting to consume me. It is even bring down my ego. Everyday I wake up and look and around my and want better. And, don't get me wrong I am grateful, but I want the home that you see on cribs. Thinking about me never reaching the goal is frightful. It can almost bring me to tears. Like what if me being a good boy and saying my prayers not get me where I want to be. When I get older I don't want to have to worry about paying bills, or if I can give my kid lunch money that day. I don't want to be the guy that is 30 telling the stories that he almost made it pro, or still trying. I WANT TO BE THERE!!!
And, then on the other hand; why do I care? Why can't I just be happy? Life can be as enjoyable chilling on a beach being a nobody. So, why do I want the riches. Only the lord knows...
So, if you stayed and even read this long, random, poor written thread, thank you. If you didn't well you won't be reading this. In the end thanks for reading :)