TheRecoilEffect
03-27-2011, 03:23 AM
I was debating whether or not I should create one of these threads because I've always been hesitant to do so in the past. Well, here goes... something.
Let's see. I'm 19 years young, In my 4th semester in college (undeclared, currently), employed at my local library ("liberry" for most of my co-workers who witnessed an incident I was involved with when I first began there). Trying to live and love my life and all I interact with.
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I started I was a youngster(around the age of two), and haven't stopped. Around that time, My parents also got divorced... and it was a VERY messy divorce; a lot of anger, a lot of hate. I really took a toll on me not so much at that age, but kicked in around the age of eight, when I was found to suffer from depression, I was in and out of psychiatrists' offices for around 6 years, when I decided that it was not helping me at all. What ended up helping was the discontinuation of my regularly scheduled visits to my father's ( it had been every Monday, Wednesday, and every other weekend, then just the weekends, then whenever I felt like it). I also had two older brothers that were a good nine years older than me and due to this, they weren't apart of my childhood for very long, as they moved out, had kids, etc. I think the lack of interaction with my brothers plus the uneasy relationship I had with my father at the time was what made it hardest.
Great times during my pre-teens: fracturing my arm, slicing my leg open and getting 12 stitches, being ostracized from many of my friends at school due to other people's opinions of me, House getting broken into and having most things of value in the building. Basically, not only did I suffer physical injuries, but mental and emotional ones on top of the depression I already had.
Skip ahead to high school and things are going better, I'm happy with where I'm at and have more friends then before, lost weight, grew 8" taller and gained muscle, asthma issues I had in the past had lessened in severity and improved my mile run speed from 14min to 6 min (I felt like a king for a day). End of my sophomore year, I have a seizure in the hospital after getting blood drawn. EKG and EEG taken and no problems found, but I have a feeling it affected my short-term memory. I begin to procrastinate. Not to the point where I didn't get stuff done, but I would wait until the last minute to do so. I still graduated with honors and already had a job out of high school making more money than most jobs paid in the area. Throughout all this super cool stuff that had been an improvement to my past, I still felt like I was missing something and my depression would sometimes get the best of me (not so much anymore, but still...). It has definitely affect my self-esteem and my confidence, although I do my best not to show it (and it doesn't affect how I game), so... yeah.
Since I went off on a tangent about my part, I'll redirect to why, if you are, still reading this... gaming history. Like I mentioned, I've been gaming since I was an infant, basically. Started off on the NES and moved up to SNES. Didn't play Atari too much and didn't own a Sega system, so I only got to play at my friend's house. Didn't get to play N64, of Playstation until after my brother's were done playing or when they weren't home and I ended up playing the N64 more. Favorite games were Legend of Zelda (both OoC and MM) and SSB. That's around the time I became a Nintendo fanboy. I got a Gamecube for Christmas one year and played that system to near death (SSBM never got old). I ended up inheriting my brother's PS2 that he bought due to the fact he was never home to play it. I then also became a Final Fantasy fanboy ( went back and played VII and VIII after I beat X). For the longest time, I always talked about how Nintendo was the greatest game company ever and that Gamecube > Xbox... Until I turned 13. I started going over to my friend's house regularly because many of my friends lived on the same street. He talked me into playing Halo with him, even though I thought it was terrible. He changed my life. From that day, I loved playing Halo. First one I played was H2, and many of you may sight at that, but I did go back and play H1, if that's any consolation. After my house got broken in to a few months later, I spent part of the insurance money on buying another PS2 and an Xbox (I didn't buy another Gamecube because they stole every part of that system except two games). Bought the Halo special box set ( the one that came with H1, H2, and the H2 map packs), played that game to no end, and talked my mom into letting me get Xbox Live a few months later. I started off extremely casual, just playing in whatever playlist I felt like and not worrying about rank at all. about half a year later, one of the people on my friend's list talked me into modding; not the matchmaking mods but the ones where gun rounds spawn vehicles, flying turrets, and other nonsense like that. I died my best to keep it all offline until I accidentally forgot to revert and signed on and got banned. I spent the next 6 months modding custom lobbies and that it around the time I was introduced to MLG gametypes. I ended up spending the majority of those 6 months playing MLG TS on Lockout and Midship then I did on Relic flying a Warthog or on Turf driving a Scarab. at this time, I didn't know og the MLG forums, so I ended up watching MLG during the season they had it on USA (the television channel). This was probably the greatest time I had gaming in my teen years.
Fast -forward to H3. I started playing H3, just like H2: casual, but I understood what ranks were for and actually put effort into those playlists. I soon find out, "They released gametypes for MLG variant" and there I was, back into the competitive nature that is MLG. I played through all versions of every map they had on the circuit and I met a lot of really cool people through the community. I finally made an account on the MLG forums. I had always wanted to compete at an event, but due to the lack of income I had, I wasn't able to attend any events until Raleigh '10, where sadly, I got LBR2 with a team that had no formal practice prior to Round 1. I wasn't very bothered by this at the time since it was my birthday and just being there was amazing. I skipped the DC combine for school and then attended the Reach Exhibition in Dallas where my team placed top 64 in what I considered a ridiculous bracket ( after the team we beat in R2 (bye R1) that we scrimmed online several times, we had UtI, Zekkou Black, Hotshotz, and Darkest hour). Honestly, I was really happy we took a game against UtI considering we had about a week of practice. As of the moment I'm typing this, I plan on attending all events from Olumbus on this season.
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Although I had what could be considered a rough childhood, Gaming has been there throughout and MLG has changed the way I game.
Sorry for the wall of text, but I'm not sure what happened, but I got really into typing this out. No, this is not Copy/pasted. By the way, The title has to do with my gamertag and my friend. It's okay if you don't understand.
Message me if you want to run customs or MM. I'm usually down for it if I'm not preoccupied.
Let's see. I'm 19 years young, In my 4th semester in college (undeclared, currently), employed at my local library ("liberry" for most of my co-workers who witnessed an incident I was involved with when I first began there). Trying to live and love my life and all I interact with.
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I started I was a youngster(around the age of two), and haven't stopped. Around that time, My parents also got divorced... and it was a VERY messy divorce; a lot of anger, a lot of hate. I really took a toll on me not so much at that age, but kicked in around the age of eight, when I was found to suffer from depression, I was in and out of psychiatrists' offices for around 6 years, when I decided that it was not helping me at all. What ended up helping was the discontinuation of my regularly scheduled visits to my father's ( it had been every Monday, Wednesday, and every other weekend, then just the weekends, then whenever I felt like it). I also had two older brothers that were a good nine years older than me and due to this, they weren't apart of my childhood for very long, as they moved out, had kids, etc. I think the lack of interaction with my brothers plus the uneasy relationship I had with my father at the time was what made it hardest.
Great times during my pre-teens: fracturing my arm, slicing my leg open and getting 12 stitches, being ostracized from many of my friends at school due to other people's opinions of me, House getting broken into and having most things of value in the building. Basically, not only did I suffer physical injuries, but mental and emotional ones on top of the depression I already had.
Skip ahead to high school and things are going better, I'm happy with where I'm at and have more friends then before, lost weight, grew 8" taller and gained muscle, asthma issues I had in the past had lessened in severity and improved my mile run speed from 14min to 6 min (I felt like a king for a day). End of my sophomore year, I have a seizure in the hospital after getting blood drawn. EKG and EEG taken and no problems found, but I have a feeling it affected my short-term memory. I begin to procrastinate. Not to the point where I didn't get stuff done, but I would wait until the last minute to do so. I still graduated with honors and already had a job out of high school making more money than most jobs paid in the area. Throughout all this super cool stuff that had been an improvement to my past, I still felt like I was missing something and my depression would sometimes get the best of me (not so much anymore, but still...). It has definitely affect my self-esteem and my confidence, although I do my best not to show it (and it doesn't affect how I game), so... yeah.
Since I went off on a tangent about my part, I'll redirect to why, if you are, still reading this... gaming history. Like I mentioned, I've been gaming since I was an infant, basically. Started off on the NES and moved up to SNES. Didn't play Atari too much and didn't own a Sega system, so I only got to play at my friend's house. Didn't get to play N64, of Playstation until after my brother's were done playing or when they weren't home and I ended up playing the N64 more. Favorite games were Legend of Zelda (both OoC and MM) and SSB. That's around the time I became a Nintendo fanboy. I got a Gamecube for Christmas one year and played that system to near death (SSBM never got old). I ended up inheriting my brother's PS2 that he bought due to the fact he was never home to play it. I then also became a Final Fantasy fanboy ( went back and played VII and VIII after I beat X). For the longest time, I always talked about how Nintendo was the greatest game company ever and that Gamecube > Xbox... Until I turned 13. I started going over to my friend's house regularly because many of my friends lived on the same street. He talked me into playing Halo with him, even though I thought it was terrible. He changed my life. From that day, I loved playing Halo. First one I played was H2, and many of you may sight at that, but I did go back and play H1, if that's any consolation. After my house got broken in to a few months later, I spent part of the insurance money on buying another PS2 and an Xbox (I didn't buy another Gamecube because they stole every part of that system except two games). Bought the Halo special box set ( the one that came with H1, H2, and the H2 map packs), played that game to no end, and talked my mom into letting me get Xbox Live a few months later. I started off extremely casual, just playing in whatever playlist I felt like and not worrying about rank at all. about half a year later, one of the people on my friend's list talked me into modding; not the matchmaking mods but the ones where gun rounds spawn vehicles, flying turrets, and other nonsense like that. I died my best to keep it all offline until I accidentally forgot to revert and signed on and got banned. I spent the next 6 months modding custom lobbies and that it around the time I was introduced to MLG gametypes. I ended up spending the majority of those 6 months playing MLG TS on Lockout and Midship then I did on Relic flying a Warthog or on Turf driving a Scarab. at this time, I didn't know og the MLG forums, so I ended up watching MLG during the season they had it on USA (the television channel). This was probably the greatest time I had gaming in my teen years.
Fast -forward to H3. I started playing H3, just like H2: casual, but I understood what ranks were for and actually put effort into those playlists. I soon find out, "They released gametypes for MLG variant" and there I was, back into the competitive nature that is MLG. I played through all versions of every map they had on the circuit and I met a lot of really cool people through the community. I finally made an account on the MLG forums. I had always wanted to compete at an event, but due to the lack of income I had, I wasn't able to attend any events until Raleigh '10, where sadly, I got LBR2 with a team that had no formal practice prior to Round 1. I wasn't very bothered by this at the time since it was my birthday and just being there was amazing. I skipped the DC combine for school and then attended the Reach Exhibition in Dallas where my team placed top 64 in what I considered a ridiculous bracket ( after the team we beat in R2 (bye R1) that we scrimmed online several times, we had UtI, Zekkou Black, Hotshotz, and Darkest hour). Honestly, I was really happy we took a game against UtI considering we had about a week of practice. As of the moment I'm typing this, I plan on attending all events from Olumbus on this season.
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TL;DR Mode: [ON] OFF
Although I had what could be considered a rough childhood, Gaming has been there throughout and MLG has changed the way I game.
Sorry for the wall of text, but I'm not sure what happened, but I got really into typing this out. No, this is not Copy/pasted. By the way, The title has to do with my gamertag and my friend. It's okay if you don't understand.
Message me if you want to run customs or MM. I'm usually down for it if I'm not preoccupied.